Sunday, March 5, 2017

A letter to you.

Dear you, 

You have go through so much - so much of pain, of the hurting, of the broken heart, being back-stabbed, being lied to, being ignored and unwanted, and all the worst things that ever happened to you, you have go through and done for so much already. I know its sucks, its so painful that all you ever wanted is to forget everything that you wished you be involved in any kind of accidents and makes you forgot everything. I know those horrible thoughts of hurting yourself, of not wanting to be outside and meet people, and just there, sitting in your bedroom and feeling nothing - i know it all. I know its hard, it is so hard that you even kept this to yourself for a long time til its finally have eaten you. I know that you want to be alone, because you barely speaks up to everyone anymore, even your friends - because you usually the most active and talkative in your group conversation, but not anymore. And you hated the most when people ask whether you are okay or not, because you don't feel like answering them, telling them lie that you are okay because the truth is you are not. You are not. You are not okay. NOT-OKAY. So whenever someone asked you, you just ignored them. 

Its already hard enough of being not okay, of not being yourself. I know you misses you, you miss the old you - happy, hyper, louder, full of joy, loves to laugh, strong and everything, because i miss you too. And its hard to see you being like that anymore, you let yourself be succumb into your own wounds, darkness, into you own oblivion that you've changed - so much. And i hate seeing you like this, i hate seeing you hurting, because i can feel it too.

I know that people told you to be strong, to let time heals when all you ever wanted now is for it to be gone now, because you just cant take it anymore. I know people told you to go outside, meet new people, have fun, live your life - but you are already scare wondering if the same thing would happen again, and that you be hurt again, so you just wrap yourself in your blanket and be asleep the whole day. No matter what people told you to do, you just don't listen, anymore.

I don't know what else to say to make you feel alright, feel better and be okay, be happy, be you. But you are never alone, and you are never weak. You just have to hold on, be strong. Get up again, and again, and again when you all feel is giving up. Because i believe at some point, all the pain will go away without you realizing it. Just don't give up, have faith and trust everything will be okay someday. As what you believe in, in order to find own happiness, you need to find it within you and not with somebody else. So that's what you are going to do. Hold on, don't give up, be strong, find your own happiness, and yourself. Because that is what i am going to do, and i need you to work with me, so we can be together again - one mind, one heart, one soul, in a single body. Because i am you, and you are me.


Sunday, October 23, 2016

Just give him three days.

And even until the forth day, the fifth day, the sixth and the seventh day, he still havent tried to find you. And so, it goes til the next week, the week after, a month, two months. Then you realised, that it has already over without you both having a talk about it. Immatured? The guy is, and perhaps he still is.
So girls, please dont throw yourself out for guys that dont deserve you. If he doesnt want you, move on. Find yourself another nice guy, or someone worth it. Really.

Monday, October 3, 2016

Dear bestfriends.


When your best friends are far away and you misses them so much and you edited a photo of them with you being a ghost and then whey uploaded a video saying hi to you.

Omaigad, i is kencing manis la lepas ni. Who needs boyfriend if you have a girls like this? ❤

Okay tipu, boyfriend takde takpe lagi, husband takde tu yang jiwa kacau.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Book review : UNITED AS ONE

United as One -  the seventh and the final book. I just thought that i need to blog about this but then i forgot that i did not blog about The Fate of Ten after The Revenge of Seven (just click on link then it will bring you straight to the Revenge of Seven review). Though, i will include some of the important details of the sixth book here - for what that i remember, if i do remember.

Okay, first thing first, it started with a girl named Daniela, who developed legacies as Sam did in the previous book, and she kinda save the day fighting those Mogs - that somehow she found Sam and John, the three of them traveled together, fighting side to side (as i remembered). The three of them also met, or be found by agent Walker, which now worked with whatever-the-called-the-government-association-name was in fighting the Mogs. The government are trying to defeat those garde in winning their battle against Setrakus Ra, altogether with the new developed human-garde (they called the unit of human-garde as LANE - which i still don't remember what stand for what). I don't remember where exactly Nine was, but i am sure that he has beat the crap out of Five during their fight on whatever and whatever. Five finally being held hostage.

While the others (Six, Marina, Adam, Sarah, Mark) went to the sanctuary, throwing all the Lorien stone altogether into the sanctuary well (i guess), with Seven too. And somehow Eight re-alive, for a moment saying his goodbye to Marina. They managed to rescue Ella, as Setrakus Ra ship goes to the sanctuary to took whatever power of the Lorien that grows in the sanctuary. Though, there was a huge fight between the Mogs and the garde with their human friends. Marina was deeply injured by Setrakus Ra, with broken bones and all that. Six went mad and tried to kill Setrakus Ra, but failed. But she did hurt him, she strikes blade into his chest, and almost got his heart. But she wasn't lucky enough. Sadly, Sarah did not make it alive. She got hurt, got blood all over her body while rescuing, or helping Six during her fight with Setrakus Ra, but with Marina unconscious, no one can ever help her. So the book ends with the last goodbye of Sarah to John.

John was all sad, and very determine to end the war soon. He wanted to defeat Setrakus Ra so badly that he goes all out. Since he had a Ximic, a legacies in copying other legacies/powers, John try to learn on every other power that the garde have. He already developed invisibility from Six and healing from Marina, next he needed to learn to fly by Five, telepathy by Ella and laser-eye-turn-to-stone power of Daniela to defeat Setrakus Ra. He was so determine and went all out during their (John, Six, Adam) hijacked mission of the Mogs war ship. Also, they met Rex, another true born that helps the garde in defeating Setrakus Ra.

Other than that, they managed to find another human-garde - Rigel, Fleur, Ran and another one is the fat-boy-who-can-control-bees-which-i-dont-remember-what-his-name-was. There was so much of conflicts, with the humans that hardly to trust the good Mogs (Adam and Rex, including Nine - for not trusting Rex much),  the garde to trust the well being of the human-garde under the provision of the government (as they might use those human-garde as an asset for military use),  the tension between Mark and John for the death of Sarah, and obviously the self conflict of John for the loss of his love that he want to kill Setrakus Ra by himself without letting the other garde be killed or get hurt, the relationship between Six and Sam, and Ella to the garde and also her great great grandfather - Ra himself.

It is full of tension and excitement, more death, more blood are shed. It is confusing, scary, heart threatening. It is also sad, especially to see few characters died, including the chimaera (and it was Dust, Adam's favorite and also mine - i think i might after this, remembering Dust and Adam). And i was so afraid that more people would die during the last fight, because actually the garde are all by themselves (John, Six, Marina, Nine, Adam, Ella and surprisingly Five) without the help of the human-garde except for Sam, Bk, Dust, Lexa and Rex. They went on the fight just with a few numbers of them, and some might die, get hurt, or losses their body part. But they finally win, well obviously they have to win, no one on earth would want an unhappy ending with the garde lost and Ra wins. NOBODY EVER WANTED THAT. So it is pretty much logic that the garde wins, with the sacrifice of this and that. Though, no one can ever helps to heal the wound from a broken heart. Sarah is still dead, and there is no way for her to be alive. John was right, they may developed powers, legacies, but the garde do not have the power of God in bringing someone's dead to life.
A year has passed after the fight, and everyone seems to have their own life in their own way. Some are alone, some have the company of others. But they are always be united - United as One.