I hate this feeling of wanting someone so much that it hurts, because its you the only one who wanting. Because you want someone that you know you cant have. You knew from the very beginning that it is only a one sided love. But why do you still want to gamble your life on the love that would never existed? Because you had hope. Because you've been treated like you have a chance but you actually don't.
Honestly, if you don't want more than just being a friend why did you treat me like i am more to that? Screw all the sweet messages, screw the love and the miss that you told me, because that is all a lie. Screw the joke for needing me in your life. Screw all the bullshit. Screw you.
But those words would never come out from me. Because sometimes, i wanted this. I know we're not meant for each other, well thats what i told myself, so atleast to have what we had, is enough. It enough to give me joy, and also the pain.